Taking medical leave for 2 days. I had bad nights. Turned and tossed in the bed all night long. I can't sleep well because of having overnight cough. Well... I'm going back to work tomorrow. It's quite down when I need to face the people I dislike, the work that never ending. I'm still wondering about what job suits me? Um... Can't find someone to talk to. I couldn't whine to everyone I meet. I just can bury my real feelings in my heart. I feel useless. Am I really...useless? I gradually lost interest in living. I know such a thing shouldn't have occurred to a 24-year-old lady. I was born to be happy and healthy, not to work in a hell. When I noticed many people were leaving the company because of their health issue, I started to feel scared and vulnerable. Hope I will not be one of them. Why can such bloody hell firm operate in this world? Can you earn money without considering
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How long I have not been around... I can't believe I have been gone for one year. Blog, I miss you... I have no intention to neglect you, trust me. I'm just too exhausted and there is no spare time for me to filling you with my feelings. What is life? I'm tired. To fake a smile in front of the people I dislike? To force myself to accept the hell life? There is so politic in this environment. People appear to be politicians. And I'm just a useless foreign worker. My life is full of question marks. I'm like driving in the thick fog, there is unknown destination. God, would you save me from this hell? I want my situation to be different. I want a healthy body and healthy life. Hope God hears my prayers.